Alter-ego

Dream recorded 01/31/11

Inside a creepy industrial building. Something about going near a weird wall that could morph into an elevator thing or let you walk through it. Something about some kids getting too close to one of these morphing walls and they disappeared.

I was with a guy who could transform into this crazy alter-ego form of himself, who was amazingly gorgeous: strong, agile, had short dark hair, very handsome face with eyes that were green on the edge changing to gold in the middle.

Gorgeous but scary because while transformed you could see and feel the evil burning inside of him. Though he was struggling to internally supress and fight the evil, he didn't know if it could completely overcome him at any moment and turn him into an evil being for good. He tries to stay in his normal form because this keeps the evil from consuming him.

Something is going really wrong and we realize we have to get out of here. Bad things are happening around us; we try to get out of the building... and find rooms where people are dead. There is blood everywhere and severed limbs and other gruesome gory things. I am terrified out of my mind. The guy transforms into his alter-ego and picks me up with his strong arms so I can bury my face into his chest and not see the horrifying scene around us, and he carries me while running through the rooms to get out of the building.

Somehow we finally get outside and are on unkempt, partially yellowed grass. It is a peacefully warm day, the sun is shining and there is a road nearby, separated from us by a tall barbed wire fence. We realize we were inside some kind of secret underground lab thing, because from out here you can't tell at all that underneath us there are rooms full of terrible things.

A poisoned land

Dream recorded 08/15/11 at 8:30am

Across a very large expanse of the world there is a slow poisoning from toxic gas seeping out of some thin black piping that spands the land. Some areas are worse than others.

If you breathe or stay in a badly poisoned area for too long, you can die quickly. Organized cleanups are taking place, where you can volunteer to help suck up the gas with a vacuum type machine.

I've got one of these vacuums and I think of cleaning up a particularly bad area, or at least helping it a little. I cross a bridge to get there, then start sucking up the gas with the machine.

I realize the area is much worse than I thought, and I start to feel ill. My lungs feel terrible and I imagine them to be looking splotchy like the radiation badges used in Battlestar Galactica.

I hear someone calling my name and looking for me. I shout out so they notice me. At the bridge I suddenly realize the bridge (which is about 15 feet long) goes over a huge deep canyon. It is slippery and has no guard rails. I'd been thinking about other things and somehow hadn't noticed this when I initially crossed over.

I hesitate because it is very scary. A person is on the main side, encouraging me to come over. I am feeling worse by the second due to the toxic gas poisoning, and my lungs are quickly getting more coated with black splotches.

Finally I run across... I lose my balance near the end, but manage to grab on the edge of the canyon with my hands, narrowly escaping falling into the canyon. I pull myself up, really freaked out but manage to safely get back onto land.

Earlier dream: I forgot most of it, but something about konnyaku and something else about ice popsicle molds.

Green olives

Dream recorded 8/22/11 at 5:45am

Erik had eaten so many green olives that his thumb was slowly turning into one!! He was also eating raw white mushrooms.

Secret toilet code

Dream recorded 08/06/11 at 7am

I am in a weird house/cabin/building/medical clinic/mall. There is an ice cream kid selling candy and snacks. One of the snacks looks like a shinkansen bullet train. I buy one and like it. I want to buy another, but now the ice cream kid is gone. I look up his location at some sort of computer terminal, and see where he is. I think, "that's where my sister is, too".

The place is now more of a medical clinic. We are waiting to see a doctor. I am uneasy because other sick patients are there, and it is making me feel queasy to look at the other patients. I am also worried that treatments might backfire and make me feel worse.

I am next to a bathroom. Something about a secret code to contact people via toilet. You knock on the toilet using the code, and people travel through them.

"Constructive" criticism

Dream recorded 08/27/11 at 7:15am

Casey and I are at a student art show, where people are showing off their sofa and chaise designs. We walk around, looking at the work, and come across a nice chaise design that looks fancy. It has swirling gold-leaf covered wood details, and cushions with elegant patterned peach-pink fabric.

The prototype is made out of styrofoam, and was designed by an eight-year-old girl. She is fair-skinned, with long maple blonde hair. She is very proud that we like her design.

Casey makes a couple constructive criticism suggestions... but then pulls out a saw and starts slicing into the foam prototype!! I am mortified. I grab him and beg him to stop. He does... briefly; then starts cutting again, saying how the design could be a little nicer if you "just changed it this way" (and he is trying to show how, I guess).

I am shouting for him to stop ruining this little girl's work. Finally Casey stops. I run to the girl, who is now crying. I hug her and apologize profusely, feeling absolutely terrible.

My alarm goes off and wakes me up.

Lenny's gigantic sparkley blue hat

Dream recorded 08/27/11 at 7:15am

I'm with a large group of friends in college (both real and made up people in my dream). We're outside on some small side street. There are small bleacher-like things on the side of the road, and a bunch of us are sitting on them.

For some reason, we are holding white ropes. Everyone has their own. Lenny comes by and picks up the other end of everyone's rope. Then he waves them around, as if he's Santa Claus directing his herd of reindeer. Everyone is laughing and saying how clever Lenny is.

Then a group of gorgeous women come by and put a GIANT sparkley blue hat on his head. It is humongous, with lots of intricate gold trim, tons of glitter and huge feather plumes. The hat is probably about 1/3 the size of Lenny.

Everyone is commenting on how amazing this is. Some people are snapping photos. I am trying to find my camera in my purse.

Lenny does more "reindeer directing" gestures with his amazing hat while kneeling on the ground and surrounded by beautiful women. Finally, he gets up and gives the hat back. I'm sad that I didn't get to snap a photo in time, and hope I can get a copy from somebody else.

Earthquakes and black licorice

Dream recorded 08/27/11 at 7:15am

I am in my private dorm room in college (although not any dorm room I've had in real life). It is very large and spacious, with lots of big windows, and the place is very bright with daylight.

Suddenly there is a huge earthquake. I fall to the ground. The earthquake lasts a long time, and is so strong I can't stand back up. I crawl over to my TV and turn it off. Then I crawl over to get my purse. I hear shouting outside the door in the dorm hallway.

The shaking finally stops, and I plan to go out and talk with everyone else about what just happened. However, college friends (both real and made up ones) burst into my room before I can go out. Everyone is talking about the earthquake. I hadn't expected people to come inside my room, and I'm embarrassed about the mess my room had become as a result of the earthquake.

I am trying to tidy up my room of the belongings that had fallen about, as more people come inside. Eventually I decide to forget about it and just hang out with everyone instead of trying so hard to be a perfect hostess.

A girl comes up to me and hands me huge bundle of black licorice sticks, apparently as an offering to try and become a member of my friends group. She seems shy, but nice, so I accept and she goes off to hang out with everyone else in my room.

The Martial Arts Club

Dream recorded 09/07/11 at 5:30am

The local hang-out spot is a wrestling/martial arts club. It's a massive indoor gymnasium with tall bleachers on opposite sides. The gym floor is covered with mats. There is a large entryway, with an office you can get to by climbing some stairs.

Everyone goes here to hang out after work or school. Generally, however, only guys participate in the wrestling or sparring, while girls merely watch and cheer during the matches. Girls who participate in sparring are looked down upon by the people who run the place.

Well, I enjoy sparring (in my dream, that is... in real life we only did choreographed "forms" in our wushu class, never sparring). I'm hanging out at the gym with Jeremy K, Sang, Jon, and Luke from high school. We're all scheduled to be in sparring matches at different times. I'm the last on the list, and I plan to use my wushu staff. We all cheer during each match. I spend a lot of time talking to Luke.

It finally gets to my turn. However, right then, all the lights flip off, the music stops and everyone is leaving the building.

I spot the lady who has the most power over running the club and stop her as she's walking out. I tell her I was supposed to have a turn at sparring and got skipped. She looks at me with disdain, and says she does not care. I ask her if I can at least get my belongings; I had left them all inside everywhere because I had thought I would be in a sparring match. She waves me back inside with a scowl.

It is evening and getting dark outside, and I stumble around inside the dark gym. I'm really annoyed at how misogynistic the people who run this place can be. I manage to find the light switch and turn on the lights.

The place is a mess, with trash strewn about everywhere. I gather up my things, alone and feeling bitter, and also try to clean the mess up a bit. I pick up a lot of wadded paper and cotton puffs and throw them into the trash. They won't all fit, and keep falling out of the trash bin.

Suddenly, I realize the light switch is like a lever in a video game, where it only stays toggled for a small period of time before switching itself off again. The lights then turn off without warning, and I'm left in the dark gym alone again. Everything is starting to feel extremely creepy. I fumble to turn the lights back on, but as I go to grab my gathered belongings, the lights go off again.

While groggy and attempting to record this dream in my journal, I ended up forgetting what happened after that point. The dream must have gotten much more frightening, however, because I woke up with a start with my heart pounding.

The prophecy is right

Dream recorded 08/12/11 at 8:45am

I'm hanging out with Geek Club Evan and some other people. Something about playing a game or watching a DVD. Marilyn from high school comes back from some vacation.

Suddenly I realize that the items and words I've seen in random boxes of other stuff, when put together they all somehow make sense and have to do with Marilyn's travels...? Then, I am writing in these boxes with everyone; we are signing the boxes, like a geocache log as "found".

In a different room, later. Weird stairs in the middle of the room. I am trying to figure out some puzzle or something. Events have been following some foretold prophecy.

There is a short, round, stocky man with me; he is bald and his head is very spherical. He wants to hang out and joke around, but I tell him I am disturbed because something just doesn't feel right. The prophecy said something bad was soon to happen, so I was not in the mood to make jokes.

The guy says something like "THE PROPHECY IS RIGHT" and turns to me. He grabs me by the back of my shirt. As I feel myself rising in to the air, his face morphs into a horrible fanged mouth (no eyes or nose) that is a dark vortex, sucking everything towards it like a black hole.

I wake up screaming.

He's trying to steal my baby

Dream recorded 08/16/11 at 5:30am

I was carrying two children, maybe ages 3 and 5, through a parking garage to my car (my kids I guess, non-existant dream ones) and buckling them in. A creepy boy about age 12 suddenly jumps into my car door before I can close it, and won't get out.

For some reason I start screaming, saying things like "He's trying to steal my baby!!" Some passersby notice but mostly ignore me. I'm hysterical, screaming and trying to get the boy out, and not let him close the car door (to lock himself inside with my kids). His gang of friends walks by and they sneer, laughing at me.

A group of girls walk by and I scream at them to please help me (now I am saying "help me save my little brother", I guess I am a sister now instead of a mom). One girl stops to think, and I recognize her (as someone I know in the dream, but she isn't a real life person). Her name is Bianca. She and her friends help me get the boy out of my car, and we yell at him for being so stupid and messed up.

I remember yelling "You're so young your balls haven't even dropped yet!"

Using a footrest is uncivilized

Dream recorded 08/21/11 at 5am

I'm hosting a meetup at a cafe. Orson Hodge from Desperate Housewives decides to come, but he arrives 4 hours early. By the time the meetup finally starts, he is very cranky due to the wait even though it was his own fault.

Only a few people show up even though a lot had signed up online. There is an older guy who keeps asking if Geek Club Victor is coming, because he is going to Victor's board game night that same evening. I say Victor's probably not coming because he didn't sign up for this one.

Orson keeps snapping at everyone, and is being very rude. He tells me to take my feet off the footrest because it is uncivilized. Geek Club Dave is there and orders pizza.

I am wearing a courderoy pencil skirt and it is very uncomfortable, and I'm feeling pretty unhappy about this meetup so far. I'm also really cold and don't have a sweater.

Earlier: Something about a wushu demonstration at a park nearby. It was fun to watch and participate in the interacive parts of the show. I consider taking wushu classes again, but decide not to, because they remind me of high school (which I hated) and a couple people I prefer not to remember.

Jello Greg is there during the demonstration though and really enjoys it.

I wake up cold without enough blankets on me.

This was your dead father's personal rug

Dream recorded 08/22/11 at 9:30am

We were some sort of rainbow colored small bear-like creatures (sort of like Care Bears). We lived in a run down building.

It is nighttime and we are trying to sleep in one room, inside sleeping bags. It is so cold though because the room's windows don't have glass or anything inside the panes, so the freezing air comes right in.

Later: Something weird is going on with the leader of our bear clan. She comes out of the basement storage and is displaying all these really gross, dirty stained rugs. We are all creeped out. She goes up to her son bear and shows him one of the more nasty crusty rugs and says "This was your (dead) father's personal rug" and tells him to smell it.

Later: A bunch of us bears are laughing and poking fun at one other bear. Then later on we are disturbed because we haven't seen that one bear for quite some time now, and we're worried our teasing maybe went too far and has made him snap. We fear he'll be coming back to get us in a transformed evil demon bear form.

Official Geocache

Dream recorded 08/14/11 at 9:40am

I am somehow "beamed" down from a... plane? or something. I'm with Erik, Lexi, and Amy. We are geocaching, but it is night and dark outside (with streetlamp type light). We are by a building that is closed, looking for the cache.

Some guy on a snowmobile/tractor kind of vehicle goes by, and has a chainsaw. We wave him over to help us because we want to break into the building to get the geocache. He comes over but then dissappears.

We go around the other side of the building and then a guy comes walking toward us, wanting to know why we are sneaking around. He calls security. Lexi gets my attention and points in the window; you can see a container with the "Official Geocache" sticker on it, inside the dark office-type room.

Sirens from the security vehicle start coming this way, and we start to run. We run past the building into some tall grassy bushes that border the property. Lexi, Erik and I run to the right, which goes to an escape route, but Amy suddenly veers left. Erik shouts after her, and tells Lexi and me to keep going. Then Erik goes running after Amy.

Lexi and I run off, and come across some bum-like people hanging out behind the bushes. They shout at us, and Lexi hands them something (money..?) which shuts them up. We run past them and then get to a large, overgrown grassy field.

We run across the field as fast as possible, grabbing on the the ground and clumps of grass to pull our bodies along faster. I was absolutely terrified.

Robin Williams is not a good doctor

Dream recorded 08/23/11 at 7:50am

Note: In this dream I was not "myself", I was some made-up person with a made-up family (not my real family). I had a brother in the dream, and I think the sister was older than me. I was young in the dream, maybe junior-high school age?

I am extremely angry. My family hires a doctor to give them advice to deal with me. The doctor is Robin Williams, and suggests all these strange "techniques" to my family. I can hear him through closed doors. His suggestions only make me more irate, and I purposefully derail all his plans so that they all fail miserably.

I am screaming, yelling, punching people and slamming doors in the house. At one point I tell my mom that I hate her, and I throw things at her. I lock myself away in a room. Robin Williams leaves to go run some errands.

People were trying to throw a party for me to make me happy. I'm slowly realizing how horrid I've been and I feel so bad about screaming at my mom that I hated her. I start crying.

Party guests are starting to leave, and are taking with them delicious-looking food that they had brought. I unlock myself from the room and find my sister, to apologize to her, with tears streaming down my face. My sister and I then run to stop the party guests from leaving. Everyone is happy that I am no longer super angry.

Robin Williams comes back into the house. We all yell at him for being really stupid, with terrible suggestions for "fixing me" that didn't work. We shove him out the door and slam it in his face.

Then we have a party and eat tasty things. I woke up feeling slightly angry and upset, and still feeling horrible about how I treated my fake dream mother.

Easter

Dream recorded 07/31/11 at 11:30am

Forgot most of it. Parts:

An electric lamp caught fire and the cord burned up.

I needed to get stuff out of a guarded locker, but I couldn't remember my password for opening it. Then I remember it was "Easter"; I opened the locker and got my stuff out.

Can't remember anything else, but it was a long and tiring dream and contained angry parts. Only had people I didn't know, or had made up.

Angry lady in a wheelchair

Dream recorded 08/14/11 at 9:40am

I do a job interview. I don't think it went all too well, and start to leave. I stop at the top of the stairwell to pick up a few of the free muffins and other snack items on a table there.

Suddenly I am smashed into by a lady in a wheelchair, age maybe in her 30s, with long, dark brown hair. She is pretty and skinny, but very angry and rude. I struggle to get my pants untangled (a loop or something got stuck on part of her wheelchair). She is yelling at me, and rushes ahead to use the stairs in front of me. She ends up smashing into me even more.

I am really annoyed. She starts to go down the stairs, but she has to go extremely slowly due to her wheelchair, and there is no space for me to go around her. Luckily, there is another stairwell on the other side of the snack table.

I run down the spiraling stairs a few floors until I get to the lobby of the building. It looks very fancy and spacious, like an upscale hotel, with red carpet and elaborate chandeliers.

I meet up with some guy in the lobby that I know (in my dream, but he is not a real-life person). He asks me about the interview; I lie and say I think I did very well. I am packing items into boxes and bags for some reason (personal items, as if packing to leave for vacation).

After some time, wheelchair lady appears, very exhausted and beyond irate. She yells at me for "leaving her behind"... She seems to know the guy I'm with and yells at him for packing to leave without her.

Forgot what happened after that. Then, I had this dream:

Creepers gonna creep

Dream recorded 08/16/11 t 5:30am

I'm in a dark parking garage that has plants growing inside. I keep getting my hair stuck on a branch while looking for a geocache. I suddenly notice there's a guy not too far away who is doing weird acrobatic things with ribbons hanging from the ceiling. He creeps me out. I decide to go home where it is safe.

I walk toward the elevator but the guy's gang of more acrobatic friends are hovering around the elevator. I see another random guy who looks more normal trying to get through. Together we quietly sneak through the gang and are traveling downstairs.

The guy was handsome and my age, and I forget what happens but somehow I am now walking him back to his apartment on the bottom floor before I go home to my own apartment.

We end up in a hallway filled with comic books, video games, and other nerdy stuff; the guy sits down with his friend among the piles of stuff. I notice he is now far less handsome and is older than me, and looks like some of the creeps who have tried to hit on me (in real non-dreaming life) in San Francisco. I am now creeped out by him.

His little sister is nearby at one end of the piles and explains that this trick is the only way he can get girls to hang out with him. I'm disgusted and go to leave for home.

I forget what happens after that, but the creepy tone of the dream stays and I end up waking up freaked out and uncomfortable. I fell back asleep almost immediately though and then had this nightmare:

Shot in the head

Dream recorded 07/25/11

I was part of some group of people, like a team in an FPS video game. Real life was similar to an FPS game because you would respawn if you died. Human emotions and feelings were still very real, however, such as fear and physical pain.

My "life" was very low because I had become injured somehow, and the leader of our team felt it was best for our chances (to win the game/beat the other team?) if I were to respawn at full life instead of running around so injured.

She put her handgun to my head, to my right temple. I was very scared since I hadn't gone through the process of dying and respawning before, but she told me not to worry. I was shaking with fear. Then she shot me in the head.

I fell onto my back and could feel and see the world fading away from me. My vision became fuzzy and everything seemed to zoom out and away, although I was still conscious. My head hurt where I had been shot, but I was surprised at how calm I felt considering the circumstances, as I gazed up at my teammates.

Then I woke up... never got to the part where I actually died. After waking, I had a headache, with the pain more intense at my right temple where I had been shot in the dream.

Giant brown springs which are some kind of art books

Dream recorded 07/29/11 at 6am

In an apartment with several other people (friends from Geek Club such as Evan, Amy, Lexi...) People are telling long jokes.

I am trying to get dressed since I suddenly realize I'm wearing only pink panties and a tank top. I go into an adjacent room (a bathroom) to change into clothes and get ready to go out with everyone.

There are too many doors in the bathroom, and it's hard to keep them all closed. The room has a big picture window (it's a ground-floor apartment), and male passersby outside make sneering sexist remarks toward me through the window. I flip them off and try to ignore it.

Lexi is having a hard time telling jokes in a funny way. I put on a scarf, but it's too warm so I take it off.

Later - I am driving, Casey is in the car too. We are in a creepy, rundown neighborhood with very dilapidated, uninhabited houses (most are a light blue-grey color). Casey is really disturbed but I realize it's just a marketing gimmick... Warner Bros (who owns the place we are trying to find) owns all the neighborhood and made it look rundown on purpose.

We find the museum/bookstore we are looking for and park the car. I climb up wooden stairs in front of the building. Casey says "come down, it's unsafe". His brother Evan is down there with him. I realize the stairs structure is very cheap and unstable... it slowly collapses at an angle and I am able to ride it down and jump off next to Casey safely.

Casey and Evan say they are going inside, they need to fix some computer code for the museum. Inside is more like a small bookstore. They have trendy design and illustration books. One shelf has board and card games.

I pick up a card game and recognize it as something fun I've played before and wanted to buy [although thinking now, it's not real, I made it up in my mind while dreaming]. Geek Club Evan is there and says he's played it before too and likes it.

I find a receipt on a shelf that is a split food bill payed for by Jon and Sang. There are books shaped like giant brown springs, which are some kind of weird art books.